crystal

The Goodbeys

2006-11-26T22:14:00.000-08:00

i hate goodbyes !
i hate saying good bye to a friend when u know ur not going to see them for a verry long time .
laitly it seems like iv been saying good bye way more than i should be ...
alot of my teencell leaders are leaving or have left to go some wear far away like victoria or austrailia. they always say they'll come back in a cupple of months or that they will visit but they nevey do.

i had to say goobey to another one of my frinds this weeken cuz she is going back to austrailia for 3 months and its killing me inside. i hate it ! iv gotten pretty close to her. i used to talk to her about my problems and she was my leader at camp this summer. laitly iv really wanted to talk to her but she hasent really been around sooo i was excited to see her at needrill on thursday, but instead i found out that she was going to austrailia ! i started crying but i dont thinlk anyone noticed. so i spent the night at her house on saturday with some friends of mine and this morining we had to say our good byes ...

this really sux !
i now have 2 friends that left for austrailia ... 2 friends that left for victoria plus a boyfrind that i hate having to say goodbye to (jeff <33)>
and i have been home for 2 weeks cuz my mom is crazzy
things just keep getting wors ...
btu what am i saying im probally being really greedy ... i cant expect them to stay here just cuz i want them to. they have familys and other friends that they have to see soo i guess i just ahve to except that there gone ...
i hate my life

~* C.r.y.s.t.a.l. *~

the lil ppl

2006-11-16T09:28:00.000-08:00

have u ever herd of the lil ppl ....
NO ... not rhys, aysha, alison, and brit !
the lil ppl that make ur t-shirts ... the ones that go in ur ovean and burn ur pizza !!
the ones that try to eat u when ur having a sleep over !!!!
ya thoes lil ppl ... well last night was the first time i discovered thease lil ppl !!!
i was at beccahs house, in her room listening to music, when all of a sudden i noticed that beccahs shirt was mad up of tiny lil nittingd and that hey were soooooooo small that they had to mbe mad by ppl with tiny lil hands .... aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh ... its the lil ppl ! ... they make the clothes we whear !!!!! ... ok then laiter on that day we were makeiing pizza but it got burnt ... but only on the bottom of the pizza ... AGAIN ! ... it was the lil ppl they r soooo small that they went into the ovean, lit up there torches and deliberatly burnt our pizza !!!!
... ! WTF ! ....
sooo there u have it ..... thats how i discovered the lil ppl !!!! ggaaaaaahhhhh
so if u ever seee something totally unexplainable .... u know it was the lil ppl !!!!
the end

~* T.o.x.i.c *~

planning class

2006-11-07T11:09:00.000-08:00

wow !
i am soooo board, and i have not written a blog in a really ... long ... time !
im just sitting here, on the computer ... trying to type in this web adress that will not work for me thinking about how much i cant wait to go to victoria on friday .... yay !
but seriously ... i dont see the piont of planning class ... we dont do anything usefull ...
all we do is whrite about ourselves and about getting a job and the dangres of young ppl working ... ITS STUPID ! ...
both me and hannah are just sitting here doing NOTHING ... writting our blogs talking about how boaring and stupid this class really is ....
well thats my stupid blog of the DAY ...
so good by ppl

love u always
*~ T.o.x.i.c *~

boardom

2006-09-26T16:12:00.000-07:00

blah .... boardom ....
i am sooooo .... booard if u couldnt already tell .. i am just sittin in the librarry with ayhsa n beccah waitting to go to Ashley . M house . i didnt really do much today .. i skipped all day and went to Rhyses house .. blazed 4 a bit .. went to science, and now i am in the librarry ...

there is absolutly nothing to do today ... NOTHING ... i cant help but think of J.e.f.f and A.s.h.le.y right now i miss them soooo ... much i really hope they come to youth councils this oct ... and i miss Andy n Breaka ... there great ppl its to bad there gunna b gone 4 sooo long ...

RANDOM --- > **
ahahaha Bob, Billy, Gorege, Betty Boop ahahahahah crazzy ppl ... PURPLE PPl ... evil clowns, killer daissys ** camp crush <33>

the notes of board
** 15 **
year old
girl

*~ T.o.x.i.c ~*

stonner buddys **

2006-09-25T10:53:00.000-07:00

PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG !!!

the greatest thing a person could ask for is frinds that r always there for u.
i have mad some pretty big mestackes ... most of them have been reacent ... but no matter what i always have a plce to sleep (staisha) and i always have some one there to hold my hair up while i puke (aysha) ... stonner buddys can be the greates frinds in the world ... some ppl like ur parents may think that ur stonner buddys r a bad influesnce on u ... well there RONG ... ur stonner buddys will always be there for u ... if u screw up they will probabbly be there with u ... if u acheave something in life they will be there cheering u on ...

i have spent some of my greates times partying with my stonner buddys .... i know its not good to spend all my time and money on drugs but its to much fun ... when ur drunk u escape reallity ... ur always with the ppl u love and the ppl that love u ... and if u have a bad day u just drink ur problems away and everything will be a lil bit better for a while ... i dnno y i am writting this blog ... i am just really board ... and i really want that half ounce that was jacked from us this weekend ... and if i dont get that i at least wanna be really tanked right now ... but i am not sooo i am really board right now ... lol ...

love u always
** T.o.x.i.c **

Drugs - Sex - Rock n Roll

2006-09-14T12:48:00.000-07:00

the stonner life -
ahahahahaha .... spend ur life caming haveing fun .... and getting high EVERY DAY .... thats the stonner life ....
reall life -
go camping ... miss ur friends, meet boys to far to see ... get high 4 the first time all summer, CANT STOP ... gotta keep geting high, keep getting drunck, stay up all night making out ... move in with ur mom ... ... ...
the emo life -
spend ur summer drinking ur problems away, smoke cigarettes, do drugs to KILL the pain ... cut the pain out ... whatch the blod ... go to school and prtend everything is okey ... the start all over gain ...

.... high while writting this ... skipping classs ....

* T.o.x.i.c *

surprise <3

2006-08-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

hahahahah
ok ... well yesterday jeff came to vancuver ... yay ... it was a surprise cuz i didnt know .. and i wasnt supposed to know. i was really happpy !! i probabbly didnt show it that much but i was VERRY happy ... <3> i love her sooo much ... anyways ... i spent the past 3 day spending as much time with them as posible ... !!!! .... we went to tincile town, we went to needril, went 4 pizza, went to airons appartment had pezza ... played trueth or dare ... ahahhah, we went to the beach, lotts of stuff ... i love them sooo much
well they left today ... ashley ... jeff ... and nicole ... tear ... i miss them sooooo much !!! i love them all soooo much i cant belive there gone all over again ... tear ... cry ... i didnt want them to leave ... it hurts ... i wish they all lived in vancuver ... blah ... cry ... anyways enouph of my crying i like jeff ... i miss ashley ... and nicole (eventhough she will come back)

~* Toxic *~

Suprise

2006-08-24T22:07:00.000-07:00

wow .... omg
i had the best day ever !!!!
ok to day i hung out with my friends ... beccah .. hannah .. domi .. aysha .. and satisha ... we were all meeting up to go to a salvations army party .. thing ... anyways some of my friends are graduating from war collage sooo ... ya eny ways ... we were all meeting up and all of a sudden they all start screamming "jeff ... jeff ... its jeff look !! .. " i look and i didnt see him right away soo i was confuesed ... but there he was ... i was soo happy ... <3
i also got to see all my friends from victoria ... it was awsome !!! ... i got to see ... ashley .. nicole .. breaka .. and jeff ... <3> much ... i cant wait till tomorrow to see them again ... yay ...

~* Toxic *~

summer / 2006

2006-08-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

muhahahahah !!!
blah ... i have been doing lotts this summer compaired to most summers were i sit athome and whatch t.v... i have gone to teen camp this summer ... totally awsome, love and i am going back next year ! ... i also went to sicamouse with my friends/previous fauster parents ... i met some kewl ppl and hade alot of fun doing things i havent done b4 ... it was fun ... and the i went camping with britney 4 the weekend ... lotts of fun ... we went to lightning lake 4 the day and decided to go 4 a hike around the lake ... 2 hours laiter brit and i r totally lost cus the trail turnd in to a dirt road and instead of going back down to the beach it went up the mountain ... eventually we got to a road and walked back to the lake from there ... lol ... well now i am back home in vancuver but most of my friends r gone ... beccah is in terrace ... dom and hannah are at LIT camp at camp sunrise ... leah is working most of the time ... and davan is still at cadets camp .... grrrr.... i miss my friends ... i wanna see them i have been away from them for tooo long it sucks and the summer is almost over ant then we have to go back to school !! .... GRRRRRR ... !!! ... anay ways i still have some friends left in vancouver sooo ... we can all be board togeather ... well thats my summer ...

... love ya lotts ...
~* Toxic *~

summer / 2006

my homies

2006-07-23T13:41:00.000-07:00

thats me ! ahahahahah ! crystal/toxic !

my homies !

Top - chris & paul ... Bottom - me, leah, & domi

thats gab - afrow boy ... soooo funny lol

satish - love her so much ! she is soooo beautiful <3

leah - the lion - together till the end <3>

' jeff - met him at camp sunrise this summer ...

been crazzy about him ever sence <3

joyce and i - lover her always .. bff ..

i havent hung out with her all summer ... tear ...

domi - ahahaha sooo funny and bubbly lol ... so preatty

davan - really nice guy miss him sooo much !

he's in vernin this summer 4 cadet camp

amanda - omfg i love this girl ! i miss her sooo much <3

she lives in chilliwack ... were i used to live

summer love <3

2006-07-14T12:23:00.000-07:00

camp sunrise !
the best place on earth ! i went there this summer with some of my friends, domi, hannah, and beccah. it was soooo much fun i got to meet some pretty great ppl and we got all our teen cell leaders in the same cabin sooooo it was pretty awsome.
well i had just broken up with my bf tony the day before i went to camp sooo that sucked. we didnt really have a bad break up though, we talked and desided that r realationship wasnt going anywere sooo we just brock up. it was ok i wasnt upset because we were still friends and i was with my good friends at the time soooo they were there for me !
we had a crazzy sleep over that night! we stayed up talked listed to music and juat talking. lol hannah and me stayed up longer than beccah and we started lauph soooo hard about somethin i said that we woke up beccah ... lol ... the next day chris came over and we hung out with him untill we had to go to camp. well dom and hannah cam lait to camp cuz there was no 1 to drive them and me and beccah spent all our money on the fairy cuz some 1 said that we were not gunna have dinner when we got there. well that wasnt tru. we spent all our money 4 nothing ... oh well thats ok ...
camp was soooo much fun i had the same cabin as all me friends sooo that made me happy! all the other girls in my cabbin were GREAT i really love them they were sooo much fun! well they were all pretty funn like we would come back from campfire and all the girls would be singing as loud as they could just having fun and haging out. my friends and i we the ppl that would stay up all night and keep the reast of the cabin up ... lol it was fun sometimes if some of the girls couldnt sleep they would come to our room and chill with us ... lol ... i moon jasinta sooo many times !!! lol ... well i loved my cabin we were literaly the best cabin at camp ... we got awaords 4 being the diediest ... lol ... any ways i met lotts of ppl from other cabins and i really liked them i was with alot of really kewl ppl that week at camp. lotts of boys liked me at camp and that scared me lil but they were all really kewl sooo i just egnored it as much as i could lol. well i liked some one at camp! ... jeff ... <3> and he has brown hair/eyes ... and i really like him ... we met on the very first day of camp and i instantly started liking him. he was really kewl and he is apart of andy nacole and breakas teen cell in victoria sooo they like him and think he is really kewl sooo that makes me happy :) lil did i know at camp was that he liked me to :) he talked to me at camp and we flirted but i didnt really think he liked me ... he didnt even dance with me at the dance !! :( that made me sad after that i didnt think he liked me until we were hanging out on the ferrie. lol . well ... the ferrie ... i hung out with ppl gave them my last goodbyes and every body got to hug or kiss the person that they like at camp. and i ... got to hang out with jeff take some pics and when i got cold on dec he gave me his jacket ... lol ... <3> to kiss him cuz we were never alon but that is ok. i talked to him on nex/msn and we told eachother everything. he likes me ALOT ! just like i doooo i love talking to him i really miss him but he lives in victoria ... i really want to get to know him better i really like him he calls me beautiful all not hot and he tells me that he likes me smile and he is really nice he makes me really happy and i dont even know him that well yet and that means alot to me. i really like him ... i really do i wish he lived in vancuver ... tear ... well anay way back to the staory of my summer ... well we got back to vancuver and we all went to hannahs 4 a bit then went home. i hug out with beccah mostly but we would get togeater with our other friends. its fun. well reacently right after i got home i talked to aysha and tony my ex boy friend and i find out they like eachother just like i sespected the hole time. well i find out he asked he out ! i got verry sad and satrted crying as they were begging me to let them go out ... i told them i dont make there disitions sooo it was up to them ! well i got verry sad but i also got over it but then a cuple of days laiter he comes crying to me saying omg ! i miss u i want u back i realized what i have lost i want u back ... ect ... well i fell for it for a bit but then i found out that he was telling aysha the same thing. he still liked her !!!!!! he was playing us !!!! gggggrrrrrr ....
well enoph was enuph ! aysha and i got togeather and we both bitched at him but after all that i found my self liking him again ! what happend i like jeff ! this cant happen ! ... i tryed to talk to tony about it but i was tooooo lait by that time he stopped likeing me. that was yester day ... july 19th/2006 ... the pain he has put me throgh ... it herts if only jeff lived in vancuver everything would have been diferrent i wouldnt even consider tony again like i did ... i miss jeff ...
well thats about it .. thats my summer sooo far .... <3>

my new home

2006-06-23T15:07:00.000-07:00

well yaeterday i moved to a new fosterhome !
theres no specific reason i just hade to move because the place i was at was a emergancy home so i couldnt stay that long. anyways i have a new house now with new ppl. i live with another girl my age named hannah, she is really nice and easy to get a long with. the ppl who tacke care of me are darien and a wowman named blue. darien is gay and blue just has a kewl name ! they r both very nice but i liked my other place better, it felt more like a home and they even cryed when i left. i almost cryed but it seemes to me that i cant cry over anything any more !!!!! i hate it but oh well. i miss jodi and saugar ! jodi was like a mom to me more than my mom ever was and saugar was the closest thing to a dad i ever had ! i love them ! and raven was soooo much fun to hang out with at home. raven and i wpuld stay up all night talking, whatching movies and just getting hyper! she was the only foster sister that didnt totally anoy me !!!! i will miss them sooo much
i love them ...

~*Toxic*~

a sad day

2006-06-22T16:04:00.000-07:00

... tear ...
to day is a sad day for me ... to day i am moving to a new foster home and i really like the foster parent i have now but my social worker is macking me moove ! i dont wanna ! and my friend ryhs it going to germany to morrow or somewere like that. sooo every 1 is leaving to day and that makes me sad cuz i have lost sooo many ppl already its not fare ! ... tear ... well at least ryhs will come back this summer and i will be able to vistit my foster parents ... tear ... i will miss them all ...

~*Crystal/ Toxic*~

POPCORN

2006-06-22T15:49:00.000-07:00

hay hay hay ppl !
wow on tuseday night i hade sooo much fun with my foster sister. well we were gunna whatch a scarry moving and stay up all night hand just hang out. sooooo we were gunna mack some POPCORN but our foster parents took our POPCORN away. thay said that we were not aloud any POPCORN untill the weekend even though it was summer and we hade no school ! it sucked ! they took away our POPCORN, sooo we had to get back at them some how ... eveil grin ... so we went upstairs and raided our kichen for eny kind of juck food. l0l it was so funny we ate everyhting ... hte chips, the cacke, the prezzils , lol everything ... and then thenext morning we ate our dads ice cream ... lol ... it was soooo much fun ... thats what they get fo tacking away our POPCORN ... lol ...

~*Crystal*~/*Toxic*

hay hay hay

2006-06-07T20:23:00.000-07:00

hay hay hay ppl !
i'm really board right now ! i'm just sittin her thinkin about stuff like ... I MISS NICOLE, ANDY, AND BREAKA !!! and i havent gone to youth group in ssssssssooooo long and that makes me sad :( ... tear ... so far every friday i am i ther sick or i have to go to my moms and i miss out on youth group ... tear ... its been 3 times in a row goin on 4 because this friday i have to go to a after school fieald trip ... tear ... and on top of all this i have to talk to my boy friend about somethin i did but i am to scared to so i ahvent done it yet and its just eating me up inside !!! man this all mackes me sad :( ... tear ... well anyways ... bye

~ toxic ~

really boeard

2006-05-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

i'm really baord !
really really really really really really really baord !
......... lol ... lol ....... lol .lol....lol ...lol..... lol ......lol .....bob ... bob .... i love bob ... bob ... bob ...bob .... i am ssssssssoooo board lol hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahah puple ppl r every were ... lol ... jk ... i see clowns they makc me happy ! i see them come out of the walls and eat ppl ... jk .. lol ... YOUR FACE ! ... lol ... be carfully when u see a puple or pink banana because they just might kill u .. lol .. hhhhhhhhmmmmmm board dome hhhhhhhmmmm YOUR FACE ha hah hah ahah aha ha i say that bcuse it anoys ppl b-cause it is sssssssssoooo old - like YOUR FACE - ooooooooooooooohhhhhhh BURN !!!!! lol .. jk .. gangsta love !

~ friends ~

sjmw
trippy hippy
the blue dot
playground princess
13ubb13

and me of course
~ toxic ~

my prince

2006-05-21T00:39:00.000-07:00

when will my hansom prince to come tack me away ?
when will i here the trodding footsteps of a noble steed ?
when will i dance in the rain under neath a lamp post light and my night with a long kiss ?
when is my prince going to come tack me away ?

may fairy tail is only begining .... when will it end ?
i wait until i hear his call til then i am ... the darkness all alone

~ toxic ~

call of the zombie

2006-05-20T17:34:00.001-07:00

and out of the darkness the zombie did call, cherping and suffering he brought to them all, away with the children to hide in therer beds 4 fear that the devil would chop off there heads !

my fav song/quote ..... lol .....

~ toxic ~

i am the darknes

2006-05-20T16:29:00.000-07:00

! the darness is coming !
i will never b alone in this fairy tail, there will always b some 1 around there corner waiting 4 me. my hansom prince and his noble steed has been struken by lightning of unfortunant events. my heart has disapaited in time all that is left of me is the image that ppl see in there mindes every day, i am the creature that haunts ur dreams ! bewaer ! i have excaped the stone wall that once concealed me and i am hungry for pain ! once i have u i will never let u go. my pain will soon be urs. the evil controlls me i am ... the darness ... i will get u were ever u r ! the absence of life will lead me to death, but do not fear bob is hear ! he will haunt ur dearms with the power of blue ! u may not under stand the meaning of my voice and actions but neither do i. u may not know who i am but neither do i !

now hear is a question for u my noble ones.
what do u see when u look in the meror ?
what events define who u r ?
what do u love about ur self, and what do u hate ?
who r u to day ?
who do u want to be ?

~ toxic ~

lazzy days

2006-05-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

i love those lazzy days !
the days were u wacke up really lait and just stay in ur pj's for a cupple of hours and just sit around talking to ppl on the phone or the ppl u live with, if u live with ppl of course. i love wackeing up to the sunshine and the sounds of nature ! .... aaaaaaahhhhhh .... :) to me if i have a good morning to start of my day i usally have a good day. i dont know about the rest of u, but i think every body should have one of those day at least 2 times a month. ... lol ... hhhhhhhhmmmm...... well thats all i guess .....

~ toxic ~

pueple lepracons

2006-05-19T13:22:00.002-07:00

hay hay hay !
i am in dramma class right ow thinling of how board i am !what is a person to do when they r board ?
really ! YOUR FCAE ! sorry i had to say some thing ! ... lol ... any ways .... have u ever ... seen a ... purple lepracon ?
there really rare ... lol ... they r born in the center of daisys but they live in willow trees ! they travle throught out the world in rainbows and damce in clowds ! the puple lepracons can be extreamly nice to u thay can even give u gold and treats and cake and introduce u to the o-mighty BOB !! ... but ... if they dont like u then u better hope u never run into 1 ... they can be verry jelious, mean, spitful, vengfull, and tricky !! they can send u to worlds of fire or worlds of clowds. they will trick u into thinking u are being invited to their mysterry land but really they r planning to pull our all ur nose hairs 1 by 1, and streaching ur boddy fat soooo far u could were it ... lol ... then they take u to a girl called beccah then she takes u to her kitched and .... then she EATS YOU ... mua hah ah ah ahha hahha ahha aha ah !!!!!

UR FACE ! YOUR FACE !!! UR FACE ! .... BOB ... I LOVE BOB ...

it herts

2006-05-18T21:53:00.000-07:00

* him *
i thought i loved him at one point ! he made me happy, so happy my friends could tell the differance ! he made me louph ! i hade so much fun going out with him ven b-4 that we were good friends, but some how it all went away ! i was willing to give anything to him because i thought i loved him ! it was new, that feeling that i got very time i sai " i love u " it made me feel good inside :) but some how i didnt htink it was the same 4 him ! i mean it didnt take hime that long to say it to me. 2 weeks after we startedd going out ! i new he like hed me a year longer but did he really mean it ?
i really loved hime ! i really did ! and i still dont know if i can say i dont ? it feels like it and i wan to say i am over him but am i ? am i really ? i wont know till its clear i guess
what ever ! i hatehim now ! he cheeted on me when he wen to kamloops and got drunk 4 the first time ! then when we broke up he went out with the girl he cheeted on me with ! ouch ! but what ever ! they broke up and now he is going out with 1 of my friends and that herts, but the pain will go away 1 day ! any way i like other ppl now and i am slowly getting over him so its all good and thats my sad storry 4 now i will let u cry or lauph at me 4 sharing this now so bye bye

~ toxic ~

---->BOB<----

2006-05-18T21:08:00.000-07:00

------> BOB <-------
bob is the lil blue man on my shoulder !
he makes me happy ! he makes other ppl happy at my school .... lol .... very 1 knows about bob !
some ppl even have there own bob on there shoulder ! if u dont know about bob u SUCK ! just jokin ... lol ... but ur not kewl ... lol ...
any ways ! u should meet bob some time he is really kewl ... lol ... hhhhhmmmm .... bob ... lol where ever u go bob will b there ! what ever u do bob will b there ! no matter what bob will b there on ur shoulder with u every moove u mack ! BOB WILL B THERE !

now time 4 some randomness ! ......
purple people ! crazy monkeys ! rajing squerels ! ur face ! ur moms face ! i hate logan ! sex matic penis drivers ! spoons will rule the world (from a friend) ! TOXIC ! purple ! purple ! purple !