The Goodbeys

i hate goodbyes !
i hate saying good bye to a friend when u know ur not going to see them for a verry long time .
laitly it seems like iv been saying good bye way more than i should be ...
alot of my teencell leaders are leaving or have left to go some wear far away like victoria or austrailia. they always say they'll come back in a cupple of months or that they will visit but they nevey do.

i had to say goobey to another one of my frinds this weeken cuz she is going back to austrailia for 3 months and its killing me inside. i hate it ! iv gotten pretty close to her. i used to talk to her about my problems and she was my leader at camp this summer. laitly iv really wanted to talk to her but she hasent really been around sooo i was excited to see her at needrill on thursday, but instead i found out that she was going to austrailia ! i started crying but i dont thinlk anyone noticed. so i spent the night at her house on saturday with some friends of mine and this morining we had to say our good byes ...

this really sux !
i now have 2 friends that left for austrailia ... 2 friends that left for victoria plus a boyfrind that i hate having to say goodbye to (jeff <33)>
and i have been home for 2 weeks cuz my mom is crazzy
things just keep getting wors ...
btu what am i saying im probally being really greedy ... i cant expect them to stay here just cuz i want them to. they have familys and other friends that they have to see soo i guess i just ahve to except that there gone ...
i hate my life

~* C.r.y.s.t.a.l. *~

the lil ppl

have u ever herd of the lil ppl ....
NO ... not rhys, aysha, alison, and brit !
the lil ppl that make ur t-shirts ... the ones that go in ur ovean and burn ur pizza !!
the ones that try to eat u when ur having a sleep over !!!!
ya thoes lil ppl ... well last night was the first time i discovered thease lil ppl !!!
i was at beccahs house, in her room listening to music, when all of a sudden i noticed that beccahs shirt was mad up of tiny lil nittingd and that hey were soooooooo small that they had to mbe mad by ppl with tiny lil hands .... aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh ... its the lil ppl ! ... they make the clothes we whear !!!!! ... ok then laiter on that day we were makeiing pizza but it got burnt ... but only on the bottom of the pizza ... AGAIN ! ... it was the lil ppl they r soooo small that they went into the ovean, lit up there torches and deliberatly burnt our pizza !!!!
... ! WTF ! ....
sooo there u have it ..... thats how i discovered the lil ppl !!!! ggaaaaaahhhhh
so if u ever seee something totally unexplainable .... u know it was the lil ppl !!!!
the end

~* T.o.x.i.c *~

planning class

wow !
i am soooo board, and i have not written a blog in a really ... long ... time !
im just sitting here, on the computer ... trying to type in this web adress that will not work for me thinking about how much i cant wait to go to victoria on friday .... yay !
but seriously ... i dont see the piont of planning class ... we dont do anything usefull ...
all we do is whrite about ourselves and about getting a job and the dangres of young ppl working ... ITS STUPID ! ...
both me and hannah are just sitting here doing NOTHING ... writting our blogs talking about how boaring and stupid this class really is ....
well thats my stupid blog of the DAY ...
so good by ppl

love u always
*~ T.o.x.i.c *~

boardom

blah .... boardom ....
i am sooooo .... booard if u couldnt already tell .. i am just sittin in the librarry with ayhsa n beccah waitting to go to Ashley . M house . i didnt really do much today .. i skipped all day and went to Rhyses house .. blazed 4 a bit .. went to science, and now i am in the librarry ...

there is absolutly nothing to do today ... NOTHING ... i cant help but think of J.e.f.f and A.s.h.le.y right now i miss them soooo ... much i really hope they come to youth councils this oct ... and i miss Andy n Breaka ... there great ppl its to bad there gunna b gone 4 sooo long ...

RANDOM --- > **
ahahaha Bob, Billy, Gorege, Betty Boop ahahahahah crazzy ppl ... PURPLE PPl ... evil clowns, killer daissys ** camp crush <33>

the notes of board
** 15 **
year old
girl

*~ T.o.x.i.c ~*

stonner buddys **

PARTY ALL NIGHT LONG !!!

the greatest thing a person could ask for is frinds that r always there for u.
i have mad some pretty big mestackes ... most of them have been reacent ... but no matter what i always have a plce to sleep (staisha) and i always have some one there to hold my hair up while i puke (aysha) ... stonner buddys can be the greates frinds in the world ... some ppl like ur parents may think that ur stonner buddys r a bad influesnce on u ... well there RONG ... ur stonner buddys will always be there for u ... if u screw up they will probabbly be there with u ... if u acheave something in life they will be there cheering u on ...

i have spent some of my greates times partying with my stonner buddys .... i know its not good to spend all my time and money on drugs but its to much fun ... when ur drunk u escape reallity ... ur always with the ppl u love and the ppl that love u ... and if u have a bad day u just drink ur problems away and everything will be a lil bit better for a while ... i dnno y i am writting this blog ... i am just really board ... and i really want that half ounce that was jacked from us this weekend ... and if i dont get that i at least wanna be really tanked right now ... but i am not sooo i am really board right now ... lol ...

love u always
** T.o.x.i.c **

Drugs - Sex - Rock n Roll

the stonner life -
ahahahahaha .... spend ur life caming haveing fun .... and getting high EVERY DAY .... thats the stonner life ....
reall life -
go camping ... miss ur friends, meet boys to far to see ... get high 4 the first time all summer, CANT STOP ... gotta keep geting high, keep getting drunck, stay up all night making out ... move in with ur mom ... ... ...
the emo life -
spend ur summer drinking ur problems away, smoke cigarettes, do drugs to KILL the pain ... cut the pain out ... whatch the blod ... go to school and prtend everything is okey ... the start all over gain ...


.... high while writting this ... skipping classs ....

* T.o.x.i.c *

surprise <3

hahahahah
ok ... well yesterday jeff came to vancuver ... yay ... it was a surprise cuz i didnt know .. and i wasnt supposed to know. i was really happpy !! i probabbly didnt show it that much but i was VERRY happy ... <3> i love her sooo much ... anyways ... i spent the past 3 day spending as much time with them as posible ... !!!! .... we went to tincile town, we went to needril, went 4 pizza, went to airons appartment had pezza ... played trueth or dare ... ahahhah, we went to the beach, lotts of stuff ... i love them sooo much
well they left today ... ashley ... jeff ... and nicole ... tear ... i miss them sooooo much !!! i love them all soooo much i cant belive there gone all over again ... tear ... cry ... i didnt want them to leave ... it hurts ... i wish they all lived in vancuver ... blah ... cry ... anyways enouph of my crying i like jeff ... i miss ashley ... and nicole (eventhough she will come back)

~* Toxic *~